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growing up for me was difficult. I never knew how i was going to feel.I never knew what little things would set me off and blow me up. I became anorexic and then went to buliemia. I started ual activities at a young age, same with abusing alcohol. I had a problem with shop lifting and self mutilation, not to mention pulling out my hair. I also would go through bouts of depression and have attempted suicide. I have made large purchases knowing i couldnt afford it. I didnt realize I had an issue until I became a little older. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 by 3 different doctors. I have been stabilized on lithium (1200 mg) welbutrin xl and lorazapam. I have recently changed docs due to insurance reasons. He has not once gave me a lab for lithium levels. he is also determined to say that I am adhd and not bipolar. He has made 4 attempts to get on adderall focaline and what not. Each time I feel as if im freaking out. I feel much more irritable and I want to be isolated. I cry easy and it feels like the aderall type drugs X's out or over rides the lithium. I have told him these effects and he said that it is because my body asorbs the medicine quicker than other people. and gives me yet again a script for an ADHD drug. I know its bad, but I sometimes take them because of the anti-hunger effect. I used to take seroquel, and i have packed on some pounds. I even told him thats why I take the adderall and he doesnt seem to mind. I just dont know what to do. If this doc decides that I am not bipolar i know i will be back to messed up girl I was before the lithium, and just be all nutso on adderall.